My opinion on drugs

Hmm let's just start with that I am not against anyone who does drugs or have tried drugs, or have gotten drunk, or smokes whatever it might be. My beliefs are different though, mostly because I think a lot differently then others. I have talked to 3 Mormons girls in my acting class not to long ago about what they believe in and stuff, and from what I heard, they are very much into being the best people they can possibly be because they have higher expectations of themselves, and my conclusion on what I think they would say about doing drugs and this goes for any religious person, doing drugs is a sin because the actions that people most likely take while being under the influence result in sinning and going against God and His purpose. Now, I do believe in that some, but my own opinion on the matter, is that it simply isn't natural. I had this argument with my boyfriend because he thinks that doing weed and drinking alcohol is okay. He tells me stories of his parents letting him drink with them and smoke with them sometimes, they care for him a lot and they are great parents, they just think those particular things are ok to do. Other people have different family structures, but for me that is definitely not being adults. Straight up, it's not what God made us to do. From birth, a person is meant to only consume food and water, therefore, anything that someone consumes in their bodies is simply not natural. It's just what makes sense to me.

My thoughts today... :P

I just cleaned and organized my room, and put a new bed set on my bed, and it feels very good and fresh. This new chapter in my life of a new, sophisticated, and older look to my bedroom got me thinking more about my outside looks, and life as well. I think everyone goes on a journey of finding themselves as they get more and more mature. I guess it depends on what you have been through in your life to lead you up to who you are today, but I know that I have made too many stupid immature decisions that resulted in confusion in my life. After deciding I really don't want to continue down a mislead path I have been starting over in my thinking process, my personality, and looks. My new responsibilities that I am putting on myself and coming into myself has helped me see that abusing my outer looks is not God's intentions. I used my outer beauty to control my actions, and I need to be more humble to better accomplish greater and better things. I already went through what I had to to get to my own personal thoughts about myself, and to better understand what girls have to go through starting when they start caring what they look like and how others think of them. It's great things that God has been coming to my realization. :)

Don't give up, because this too will pass :)

Homework

Being a junior in high school is not that difficult if you don't make it to be, but it can also be a troublesome burden in crucial times for teenagers, and too much for those who are "over achievers" or are forced to be by parents. Personally, homework is not important in high school or for college. Public schools don't offer enough personal time with the teachers and students to really get enough out of the class period. Private schools focus more on subjects that they want their children to focus on because they are paying for it. I just am sick of homework, it's completely meaningless to me, but yet I still do it, because I do care about my future and grades, but it's definitely a waste of my educational time. I don't even remember any of the things I had to do for homework anyway, so technically I'm not learning anything, because if I'm not passionate about something than I'm not going to remember what I just had to do. Seems like life is all about rankings, and who did this and who didn't do this, and who understands this and who doesn't understand, just because you didn't do your fucking homework.

My opinion on religion

I'm going to tackle down this subject for my own benefit, because I need to not just say my beliefs but write it down, so one day I can look back on it, and read through my thoughts as a sixteen year old. Since I can remember I have been attending the same church, I do remember trying other churches, but Vineyard of the Rockies was in a way my second home. A lot of the care that took place for me as a child was special to me, it was a place I always looked forward to during my weekends, I knew from a very early age that I loved God, because surrounding me were people that also showed me how much God was in power, and how much Jesus loved me. I took the basics with me back home and grew on that for awhile, and I started praying and developing my own faith that has revealed my character through time. I do think through things though, I don't just believe in God because it's how I was raised, but it  is how I was raised to be. I always had the choice to believe what I wanted to, but attending church, and the songs sung in gratitude to God with everyone just fills my gap that my real dad could never do for me. It's my faith that is a constant for me, sometimes I don't have it very often but it's always there it's embedded in me. Faith conquers over religion I do believe though in my opinion. Religion takes what God is all about into just rules and guilt, and some do fine in their life time and others don't know God's true love for us and his individuality he gave us, he didn't make us to be all the same all thinking the same. God gave us a consience, feelings, morals, knowledge, and beauty. There is nothing I can do about the way other people think, but I can rest in the moments feeling content myself.

My opinion on schooling

Honeslty, I came to a point where I found out that school is just random things that will be stored away in my brain that might be dusted off to be put to use some random time in the future. Yes, I do learn new things, but it's not flourishing my interests or goals in life. Infact, the things we learn in school should only be absolutely necessary other then that, it's a pointless way to occupy teenager's lives. And college is just an excuse to think we are something in this world because we are certified in schooling and certified in something specific, so then we can go and only  work in that one field. People like me are the ones who see the issues in this world, and expose ourselves to knowing what the 4 billion population holds. We are the discoverer's the ones that have strong voices that can change society, environmental issues, hunger, technology, and issues facing humanity today. I get by with a strong but open perspective, I keep my door open to all possibilities, and my heart softened to those around me. It's time we start teaching and using common sense instead of facts. We are creatures that crave knowledge that are revelant to today's issues. If school were to be more futuristic, in the way where the things we learn can be put to use as a way to individually support each person, and what they are passionate about and a way to figure out who they are as a person and the role they play in society, then there would be a lot more people that would benefit issues facing the world today.

My opinion on parents

One day I want to see a world where parents take the role as parents. I see too many teenagers in school that I have talked to that has had issues in their life time because their parents bailed out on their responsiblities. If someone wants to have a baby then they should make sure they know the person they are having the baby with is someone they know for sure as someone they want to spend the rest of their lives with, and know can work things through together. It takes one bad parent to make an unproductive extra person in civilization. These kids grow up with no real sense on how to be responsible or have any reason to care for someone because they weren't taken care of themselves, yet they are thrown into the world with no way of knowing how to deal with issues effectively, because society is so misleading. Teenagers in particular who have had a bad home life struggle a lot in who they are and what their role is as a person. These kids are more prone to affiliating themselves with everything and anything to fill the gap of their significance.